Hello, New Year

I just got back from the grocery store. I didn’t have anything to make a meal in the fridge. I just got some stuff to make one of my favorite salads: eggs, kale, carrots, extra sharp cheddar cheese, blue cheese dressing, ham, and cranberries. Yum. It was delicious.

I’ve been staying away from most carbs and sugars. I don’t eat bread, pasta, or rice. I don’t eat corn or potatoes either. However, I make exceptions about once or twice every month and go out for chinese food. I still have to have my cranberries in my salads and my nutrigrain bars as well! I eat my peanut butter cookies every once in a while, too.

I started my diet in late August. I’ve lost 39 pounds since and have yet to join the gym. I’m planning on finally joining next month in February. There’s just been so many obstacles in my way. I even got sick last month and was planning to join this month. Now I need to give myself enough time to heal before I hit the pool or hit the fitness equipment at the gym.

Swimming is going to be my main thing though. I love swimming. I’ll be attending the aqua aerobics classes about three times a week and swimming laps after and/or before class. I don’t know what equipment I’ll be getting on. I guess I’ll find out when I join. I should probably hook up with a personal trainer. So I guess you can say that’s my New Years resolution: join the gym and get fit.

I stopped reading It by Stephen King and Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice. I did lose interest in It. I probably won’t finish it anytime soon. However, I’m going to go ahead and start back reading Interview with the Vampire and move on to the next book in the series.

Right now, I’m currently reading All the Truth That’s in Me by Julie Berry. If you’re a reader and have a Goodreads account, add me.

I know that I need to stop neglecting my website. I want to write more and keep it up to date. I don’t want to shut it down. I’ve gotta get my ass in gear this year. So I will be writing more and continuing to study on my own time. I don’t know how often I will write. I can’t make any promises. So that’s another New Years resolution.

I cut my hair last month. Again. I had cut it some months back too. It grew back out. But I cut it closer to the scalp this time. I wanted to start over and start with shorter hair. I will be natural until my hair grows back out to the length I desire, but I will be wearing wigs for a while as it’s growing. I have been rocking wigs for about 2 years now though anyway. So even when it grows back out to the length I want, I will probably still be wearing wigs!

Lose Myself

Today is my birthday! I’m 32 years young. Woohoo! I don’t have any special plans for today. I’m just going to go see my family, come home, go to sleep, and get ready for work in the morning. Maybe next year I’ll do something worth writing about!

Anyway, I can’t say that I’m going to get this website going the way I want it anytime soon. I’m lacking that discipline right now. Although web design is still a passion of mine, my focus is not with it right now. I’m going to stop setting these expectations for myself. That way I won’t be disappointed and have to explain myself if I don’t exactly achieve a goal.

So, I’m not promising anything.

I just kinda lost myself in books, TV, and work over the past few months. Well, I’m still losing myself in those things. Right now, I’m currently reading It by Stephen King and Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice.

It by Stephen King is a very long book. It has over 1,000 pages. I started it at the end of August and am still reading. It’s kinda slow-paced, but it’s still interesting enough for me to keep reading it. I’m very interested in seeing the outcome, but I do think that the book could’ve been shorter than it is.

Interview With the Vampire is a very easy and fast read. It’s the first in the adult Vampire Chronicles series. I can’t believe I never read it before. I’ve collected all the books in the series but Prince Lestat and the new book coming in November.

I also finished reading Beautiful Creatures in August. It’s a Young Adult novel about “casters”. I’ve already got the rest of the books in the Beautiful Creatures series and the first book in the Dangerous Creatures series just waiting for me to pick them up.

I’ve read other books since I started reading again this year, but the aforementioned ones are the most noteworthy.

If you have a Goodreads account, you can connect with me here.

Pretty Little Things

I woke up at 11 this morning. It’s a little past 1pm now. Since then I’ve been listening to Madonna’s 1992 Erotica album. I love this album. It’s sexy.

I’ve been trying to figure out how much of myself I really want to share on my weblog and in what direction I want to take coffycane.com while I’m studying. I think I want to have a lifestyle blog. I’d like to talk about home decor, furniture, make-up, food, video games, and even (you guessed it) design! I’d like post shopping haul posts and reviews. Should I create individual subdomains for each topic? I don’t know.

I really love home decor. I do a lot of home decor shopping, although I kind of told myself the other day I need to take a break from it. I’ve been getting so many pretty smaller things that I’ve totally disregarded the fact that there are bigger pieces that I really want.

I’m a very visual person. My love for design goes beyond web design. It goes into all areas of my life: decor, art, furniture, clothes, etc.

When it comes to my style in home decor and furniture, I love the glamorous Hollywood Regency era style. I love mirrored furniture, mirrored photo frames, mercury glass accents, crystal accents, blingy accents, reflective surfaces, silver, gold, black, white, gray, furs, some animal textured accents (like crocodile), etc. I don’t decorate with too many animal prints, but I do love crocodile textured items here and there. I think that my new pops of color (accent colors) are going to be teal blue in the living room, kitchen, and bathroom. They are going to be royal blue or sapphire in the bedroom.

When it comes to styling my apartment, I look to stores like Z Gallerie, Pier 1 Imports, TJ Maxx, Wayfair etc.

When it comes to art on my walls, I really don’t have limits. I love color and interesting images. I love artists such as Minjae Lee, Oliver Gal, etc. I also love adding pretty and inspirational foiled gallery prints in my work areas in the bedroom and living room.

I still haven’t gotten a PS4 yet. That’s another thing that’s on the top of my wishlist!

Pawpaw

 

Pawpaw

My grandfather, Floyd

 

I still feel my grandfather with me. It’s so hard to believe that he’s gone. I know it. I keep looking at his pictures, but I still can’t believe it.

My grandfather was a great man. He was known as “Boy Dog” to his family and friends. But he was “Pawpaw” to me. He was a life guard in his younger years. He loved swimming so much that he purchased his own pool and opened it to the public so that black kids could have something positive to do in the 1980’s. When he and my grandmother proposed to add to the pool by building a canteen for games and food, the people in the neighborhood protested against them. The people said that it would cause vandalism. After that, grandfather and grandmother let it go.

He was a Veteran. He loved to box. He put together his own soft ball team. He also owned clubs in the Tulsa area named Floyd’s Hideaway. From that, he formed his own pool table team who played in Tulsa clubs and the neighboring towns. In his last years, he worked as an elementary school crossing guard. The kids, parents, and teachers all loved him.

I’m going to miss him a lot, but I know he’s still with me.

I’ll be going over to my grandmother’s in a little while to be with my family.

I Love You, Pawpaw.

 

Pawpaw and I

An old photograph of my grandfather and I

 

On Friday, my mom called me to tell me that my maternal grandfather had passed away. I was so close to my grandfather. I’ve called him “Pawpaw” since I was a child. He raised me (with my grandmother and mom) from a newborn baby until I was 18 years old. He was the father figure in my life, and I’m going to miss him a lot.

He was 87 years old when he passed. He lived a long life.

I’ve been crying for him. There’s so many things that I wished I would have done differently in his last months alive, but I didn’t foresee this happening at all anytime soon. He was a strong, old man. I wish I would have saw him face to face and told him that I loved him. I just hope he knew how much I did. He died alone — without any family near.

He’d suffered from alzheimer’s and seizures for a while, but now his mind is at peace.

I’ve been feeling bad every since Friday when I found out. My head’s been fucked up, and I think I might have an ear infection. I’ve been having really bad headaches. I woke up on Saturday with my bottom, left teeth hurting. Later on it bounced to my left ear, behind my left eye, and on the left side of my head. Now it’s just been in my left ear and in my left temple. No Aleve or Motrin will relieve the pain. It’s finally trying to subside now. If it continues on though, I will be going to Urgent Care.

Hot Like Fire

It’s hot as hell outside. It’s about 97℉, but it feels like 110℉. When I got into my car after work today, I almost fell out! The heat overpowered my little air conditioner in the car. I was glad when I walked into my apartment. There my little dog, Ginger, greeted me at the door by running in circles and wagging her little tail. She’s so cute.

I put on another one of my favorite albums from the late 90’s: TLC’s Fanmail. I miss those days: the music and the internet back then. That’s not to say I don’t dig what we have today. I guess you could just say those were my teenage years. There’s just something about those years I want to hold on to and never forget.

I think I’m going to lay down a little later and watch Empire on DVD. Right now, I’m just winding down with some red wine and browsing the net. I needed this drink, honey. It was a long day.

I need to get up and cook, but I don’t feel inspired by what I have on hand. I need to find some new recipes. I’ve been wanting to try a lot of vegetarian pasta dishes, one-pot pastas, and rice bowls. I’m not vegetarian by a long shot, but I have been eating more veggies/fruits the past year and a half. Raw and cooked. I discovered lemon + avocado + greek seasoning + olive oil makes for a bomb salad dressing mixture. It’s my favorite now; I hardly eat my salads with any other dressing.

Two of my favorite YouTubers, the Domestic Geek and MissLizHeart, make a lot of videos on rice bowls and pasta dishes. I just want to try them all! Check them out. They’re inspiring.

The Comeback

Hey there. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and written a post for coffycane.com. I can say that I’ve missed it and designing period. I can’t believe I stopped for so long, because it’s something that I’d always loved. I’m back though! I intend on staying and sticking with it this time. Time is too short to let anything get in your way!

A lot of things have happened over the past few years — some good, some bad. I’m not going to complain though. I’ve grown, learned, and moved past some things that had me stressed years ago. I’m not saying that I’m a completely different person and that I don’t get down in the dumps sometimes, but I try not to let shit weigh down on me like they did before.

On another note, I plan on doing several things with coffycane.com. I’ll announce it all as I complete them. I know that I would love to make a blog devoted to fashion and (maybe) beauty. I love my style — it’s so diverse, so punk, so hip-hop, so girly, so me.

Anyway, I will be working to bring fresh, new content soon.

Times have changed so much. I remember the personal domain scene back in the late 1990’s and early 2000’s. Now it’s all about YouTube.

Speaking of the late 1990’s, I’ve been listening to a lot of music from that era: The Velvet Rope by Janet Jackson, Da Real World by Missy Elliott, Kima, Keisha, Pam by Total, Never Say Never by Brandy, etc.

Those four albums have been on heavy rotation. They take me back to my first everything. I remember one of the first websites that I fell in love with was Brandy’s website that was designed around her album, Never Say Never. I was pulled in with curiosity and eagerness to learn web design from that moment. And those sounds!

I’m going to call it a night and listen to Brandy’s Never Say Never.